coefflovestostudy.yarite.

moving on...

07 has gone by pretty fast. and that sums of my 12 yrs of pre-tertiary education. not that it has any large impact on me.
the feeling of not returning to sch on the first day of sch was weird. but nonetheless good.

08's the time to grow up. no more sch uniform. no more dependence. out into the working world.

07.
nz trip with bter clara angie, teachers, the other crazy j2s, j1s
a lvls of course which seeds ive sown i do not want to reap.
bye.

im not that kinda countdown person. so on christmas eve, new yr's eve it was just another day. but ppl always have resolutions to a new year. coz it's new and the year clock just auto resets itself to 1 January. all abt starting afresh huh.
it's more of listing down what i hope to do and what ill work towards(the word 'resolutions' just make them fail)

- myself
- job
- university
- family
- friends
- driving
- tennis

sounds simple huh. sounds.

Dec 30
Singapore Indoor Stadium
$150

tied to the skies
probably by just a strand of hair.
my mood.
is just like the weather
so unpredictable.
aint i lucky it din rain
i wished it never drizzled.
but oh wells
there's always sun after rain
always hoped for a rainbow too
saw its shadow out there today
helped a lil.

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i cldnt feel worse
not the cuts
nor the bruises
never the prospect of falling
just the thoughts of 
not learning how to ride properly
not catching up with my peers
feeling satisfied to lag behind
never wanting to prove myself.
just not stepping on the pedals hard enough.
the race is over.
i lost.

just for now.
i'll win the next time round.

would you forget me if i start out on a path that no one recognizes
would you forget me if i realisee the path has little returns
would you forget me if i experience many stones on path
would you forget me if i am mislead onto a path leading to fire

would you forget me if i have already walked onto that path.

probably yes. this is life.

for the smiles shared together
and the frowns placed on me

for the loves that led to heaven
and the hates that opened hells' gates

for the ups i'll remember forever
and the downs i'll continue to treasure.

trivia iq qns

What is one thing that all wise men, regardless of their religion or politics, agree is between heaven and earth?

Why are 1990 American dollar bills worth more than 1989 American dollar bills?

How could you rearrange the letters in the words "new door" to make one word? Note: There is only one correct answer.





































The word "and".

One thousand nine hundred and ninety dollar bills are worth one dollar more than one thousand nine hundred and eighty-nine dollar bills.

"one word"

there's no someone who exist in their own world. this world is co-existent.
one can never say something w/o affecting the person who hears it. in a way or another.
when it comes outta one's mouth its called responsibility with words, just like responsibilty with actions.
the 'correct' social norm? the 'wrong' socially unacceptable? or probably just the 'neutral' nobody really cares?
whats the point of starting a day badly and spreading it like flu to the ppl around by spouting nonsense. you go on and make a big deal of your suffering in front of people who probably have suffered much more than you but are sensible enough to shut their mouth for the better of the world.
insensitivity sucks big time in today's world, in singapore, in vjc.
i really feel happy for those who meet their expectations and really do well. 
As and Bs and Cs in my pov are good by the way.
ironically it's those who dun do well that piss me off. whats the point in complainin and whinin abt ur results as if you are the smartest ass in the whole school and u studied the hardest and deserved the best yet you failed. there's no logic in that.

ok whatever .
im trying to get my AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
for maths.

Hold onto your dreams 'cause someday baby
Your ship is gonna come in so
Hold onto your dreams 'cause everything you see
Come true if you believe in holding on to your dreams

~ hold on to your dreams - keith urban ~

most times dreams dun come true cuz we give up halfway and not cuz we're incapable of achieving them.

 

found this song in my playlist yet ive nv heard it before. its an old song from 1998.
really inspirational. its just life.


I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

Yeah
As it...hey

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking that there line
So I think I'll keep a walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God
Only God
Only God knows why, why, why, why
Only God...knows...why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river edge
Take me to the river, hey hey hey 

~ only god knows why - kid rock ~ 

goodbye tim

welcome back lindsay, and jagger(awww hes so cute)



pics thanks to http://craighickmanontennis.blogspot.com/.

tonight's full moon night
not that it has any great significance to me
but anyways the sky's brighter and prettier

just felt like blogging dun wanna this time investment to die off and prob the mere few people who read my blog get to read something the next time they come. uh huh.

okay i gotta get my studying genes back into me like now. i mean now now. life after As has excited me like crazy everytime i think of it. like freedom. endless days and nights of getting outta the house. chill. work. learn. 
i wanna learn to drive. and tennis! prob try to imitate some fed forehand and justine backhand out there. ahaha so in a dreamy mood. not forgetting chilling with everyone. keep hearing the after-geog-paper-steamboat and mr-teo-organised-amazing-race. and everything that i can do which im not suppose to now!

ginny! stop dreaming man!
lemme first get pass the hurdles in front of me which are all probably taller than me. i myself will do the training for the jumping but yeah i know there'll be u all pushin me up and over right. aha.
tml's like school day after prob like 1 mth of break. and most prob ill be hit quite hard badly.

read like 1/3 of 'the time traveler's wife' - if only i cld time travel into the future huh. or maybe the past. where we could correct the mistakes we made and make life better. but again its those mistakes that make us learn. maybe not all of us. especially compulsive liars i guess do they every stop lying or tone down? or does it get worse and worse with bigger and more ridiculous lies? i guess its the latter. a real life example exists in a insignificant part of my life. boo u.

its funny huh. how ppl seem to get closer only when they are about to part. IRONIC. and CONFUSING. but at least there's that getting together.

ok 9pm show here i come! looks like the genes haven really returned yet. bye=))

everything that can go wrong with me
is going wrong.
maybe 84 days 3 hours 14 minutes and 47 seconds later
everything will be alright.
but again
that's so long.

lighter note, juju won the toronto cup. us open nxt=)) which i am so lookin forward to but cant watch much.
anw, been using this google gadget thing which i think is quite cool. it's like a taskbar on your desktop. u can add whatever gadgets u want. what i have is like a clock, games, horoscope and something that updates me on ppl's blog so whenever someone blogs i can see it like immediately. 

cant wait for school to be over. i wld say im detesting sch right now. no more late nights in sch. how sad.

crap i missed the atmos talk today. wasted opportunity.it totally sucks.

gotta put down the burden ya. trying to trying to.

thanks weili, how i love ur randomness.
thanks hate, how i love ur concern and comfort.

cool.

there's always a need for one party to take the initiative
dun hesitate
do it.

no matter how nonchalent i may seem
there's always something tingling deep down there
nothing reproachful
just bad memories.

words once helped
but actions prove otherwise.

i dun need to experience the pain
of someone running away from me
for the second time.
i know it. it sucks big time.

im not someone without a temper. why share my troubles and burden others. or rather - who wants to be burdened?

you may not give.
but you cant stop someone from giving.
appreciate it pls.

u give a little girl a sweet.
she says 'thank you'
thats basic manners.

reality it may be.
dont throw it to us.
let us stumble upon it ourselves.
this is life.

some things are better left unsaid.
i understand.but i disagree.

i love maths. especially stats.
i love lit. poems stories plays.
i love econs. micro and macro.
i love gp. the only pass i have.
i love geog. i really do.

i love reading notes.
i love practicing maths.
i love slogging till 10pm in sch everyday.

i love studying.

wo ke yi ma?

i dun like it when ppl take tones with me. especially the 'whatever.' and 'oh nevermind.' it just cuts off the whole conversation. then i'll reflect - did i say smt wrong. but my ans - no. i just said what i felt and why i took my stand. nth wrong at all aint it.

i hate myself for being fickle-minded. kinda sucks. 

ANW. sandra totally rocked today with her yuan lai ni she me dou bu xiang yao. 1st runner up!! woohoo! had a great time at macs chilling i wld say. relaaxed=))



I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

~ untitled - simple plan ~

im on page 444 of harry potter! i know prob like the whole world out there who got their hands on it finished on sat. and i know who died and what happened already but of course i wana finish e book! asap so i can do other stuff like studying=s

geog.maths.econs.lit.geog.maths.econs.lit.geog.maths.econs.lit.gp too.sigh.

on a lighter note, took part in e green quiz today w bter and angie! lol it was fun! hope we get into finals! then we can be the greenest ct=))

anw tour de france is gonna end! without any telecast of it. i think they dun even have highlights. maybe coz of the doping stuff sian.at least ill not like spend hours in front of the tv watching ppl cycling, to put it simply. but i really looked forward to it since like the end of last years, coz it was really fun to watch even though many said it was waste of time. if only lance armstrong still there i wld support him=)) i can only rely on reports to know whats gg on so boring so i decided not to read anw. i haven been reading newspapers in a loooooooooong time. gp die.

us open's on somewhere like the end of auggy! means like the start of prelims and its 2 weeks and from gp to end of paper i think its like 3 weeks! so confirm will be between exams one.HOW!? i wanna watch! but i cant not study! guess ill like watch the imot matches only or tape. sigh everything clashes.
anw for tennis fans out there, go check out craig hickman's blog. was intro to it by my sis and its really quite fun to read. and the pics! check it out!

http://craighickmanontennis.blogspot.com/

AND EPL is starting soon!! heard from airport that its startin on 11auggy. ahaha no more free sat nights. prob i shld start hooking on to it like after 'A's. BIG distraction.

im sucha sports fan this is sucha sports post=)) i wanna play soccer! tennis! squash!

chopsticks.chopsticks.chopsticks=))

what a time for problems.
this is such a year for problems i guess.studies.relationships. those two are probably what that make up my life right now. my prob is so insignificant compared to yourss right now at this point of time. but i guess sooner or later im gonna get into deep shit w my results. it really sucks la no matter what u say. i really got nth to say if i have to meet anyone which is 99% likely. i guess i chose this path myself so i gotta go thru the process, bear the consequences. i hope my hyped-up attitude towards studies is gonna keep up. angie's right. i need pushing.

dsssu - bbccd. is it possible?

but i guess little stuff really cheers me up. like spending time with my classmates(abc) squashmates(pf,yh,anna i have not forgotten u), cicmates,cedarmates and others. im so glad im gonna to spend more time with u all. msgs from ppl im not met in months make my day=))thanks ppl.
even eating sushi and bubbletea and bbq and chocolates.such a pig. but i dun care.

hate im sorry for feeling that way,thinking too much=))

love and hate may be opposites
but i guess opposites attract
no matter what happens
there's always one beside the other
lets walk thru life together
till our hair turns white.

mugging.gd.
soccer.fun.
food.damnice.

company.great.

[came home in the afternoon today the earliest in weeks. and yet i haven been doing anything cept think. such a great chance for me to do my human essay do my maths tutorial revise atmosphere look at my exam papers read duchess do macro policies]

was typing the above yucky post when i talked and poured and shared and omg im so relieved and relaxed now.
i guess this is life.

a rash goal but im gonna achieve it - 70/100 for physical prelims.

thanks clara.